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Where I Post About Everything And Nothing At All

I have 10 million things I need to post about including the following and more:

1. Boyrobot and I have been married for 8 years now! The obligatory blog post where I gush about what a great guy he is. How awesome marriage is (but also how hard!). Everything I have learned about marriage thus far. A recap of our marriage in the last year.

2. I turned 38. What I did for my bday this year. A recap of my past year. My goals for next year (who am I kidding? I never follow through lol). What I am thankful for list.

3. Travel hacking. I’m doing it and it’s awesome. So many fun trips planned including our family’s first international trip…to Italy!!!

4. Swimming lessons!!! I’m finally doing it and so excited to cross this off my bucket list. I told my teacher my goal is to swim laps and we’re almost there!

5. My little brother getting married. He’s the last one in our family!! We leave for Austin next week….so exciting!

6. Whole30 round 2. Yup, I’m doing it again! Well trying to at least. :)

7. Capsule Wardrobe. Finally did this too and it is the best thing I ever did!

8. I LEARNED HOW TO FOLD A FITTED SHEET AND IT CHANGED MY LIFE! One of these days I’ll share a tutorial! :)

9. Random posts about my kids. Because they’re funny and kind of cute sometimes.

Max’s 3rd Year Birthday Questions

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I wrote a little post about Max on Facebook when a picture of him when he was born popped up in my feed. This pretty much sums up how I feel about him:

So fun to see this. My last baby announcement (we think lol). My baby is now 3!!!! Ugh. I’m not a baby person at all but it is definitely nostalgic to think about the day this guy was born and how much he has grown in these 3 years. To no surprise after raising sweet little Emma, Max has not been the easiest kid with his OCD tendencies, his tantrums, and his love of having his mom do ALL. THE. THINGS. for him. He is a true momma’s boy. But like all difficult children, they make it up in other ways that ensure you love them no less than your other children. He totally has my heart and the love and affection he shows us is so pure and unadulterated. Even though he is so tiny, he gives the biggest and best kisses and hugs! He makes all of us laugh daily with his animated expressions and the funniest things you will ever hear a human say. As you all know, his favorite thing is Star Wars. His obsession with this is unreal and he’s only just started! I never imagined a life of light saber duels and tie fighter attacks but I seriously couldn’t imagine it any other way. Love this little guy!!!

Yes as I wrote above, Max is all about Star Wars. I am not sure how it started (maybe a youtube clip?) but one day he was just super obsessed with everything Star Wars. I got him those Little Golden Books that I had blogged about awhile ago and we literally read 1-2 of them every night. He LOVES them. He knows all of the characters and can name all of the starships! I am a little sad that he already knows that Luke and Leia are siblings and Darth is their father though. It’s such a cool moment when you are watching and finding that out right? :( But with the way his obsession is going, there was no way I could keep him from finding that out! It’s been so fun to see this little 2 year old gather and remember so much random trivia and knowledge. Who knew? Minh and I are not big Star Wars fans (we’ve seen the movies and like them but nowhere near the superfans that other people are) so it’s been shocking to see this develop in him! But we are embracing it and slowly learning all about Star Wars too :)

For his birthday, we definitely had to throw him a Star Wars party. After Emma’s Moana party though, I just couldn’t handle another party at our house. Maybe in a few years I can throw him a proper Star Wars party (which makes me wonder if I am going to be throwing him a Star Wars party every year from now on? lol). But anyways, we turned to every kid’s favorite place…CHUCK E CHEESE! It was actually really great (because no work for me!) and I think all of the kids had a lot of fun. I handed out those Little Golden Star Wars books as favors along with mini glow stick light sabers. Love my photoshop skillzzzz? LOL.

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My sad cupcakes and homemade darth vader that I made after watching a Youtube video. I swear I followed the directions exactly and it still didn’t turn out right!! LOL
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He got a TON of Star Wars presents which is perfect…he was super happy! But now our house is completely overloaded with Star Wars stuff. I have NO idea how to store all of these toys!!!

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For his actual birthday, we decided to finally hit up Adventure City since I wanted to visit it before the kids outgrew all of the rides. It’s the perfect park for young kids! They both had tons of fun, especially Emma who has surprisingly turned out to be quite a daredevil when it comes to rollercoasters and other rides!

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After we got home, we made chocolate strawberry cupcakes from scratch and we were so lucky our nearby friends stopped by to help us eat some!! Then we settled in for movie night. This was Max’s first viewing of a complete Star Wars movie. Of course we had to start with A New Hope. HE LOVED IT!!!! I can see this becoming a tradition on his birthday! :)

Before we get to the birthday questions….some pictures of Max at age 2!

Still too scared to cut his hair myself! He’s so cute when he has a fresh new haircut!
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I think his scooter might be one of his favorite things!
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Trying to get him to use the balance bike more
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Lots of fun camping trips and hikes this year!
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And lots of mini vacations including Big Bear
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Driving a Tesla
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And a dump truck! (another fave)
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Max’s first time meeting Darth Vader. He was TERRIFIED!!! But a few weeks later we went back to Disneyland and met Darth again and was super brave and always tells people he’s not afraid of Darth anymore hehe.
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We got the socal pass for Disneyland this year so many nights ended in complete exhaustion for this little guy! He loves it there though especially with all of the Star Wars stuff. We can’t wait for Star Wars land to open up!
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When we’re at home Max is almost always playing with his sister and almost always wearing some type of Star Wars mask :)
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Some things about Max at this age:
– He’s super competitive and hates to lose. If we don’t let him win, he throws the biggest tantrums! We try to use it to our advantage and make things like brushing his teeth into a competition!
– He is still very underweight but he is not a very picky eater which I’m thankful for!
– He’s very particular about things, like a lot of toddlers are. For example, he ALWAYS has to pull his pant legs all the way down (you know how sometimes they get pulled up a little?). If he puts his shoes on the wrong feet, you have to leave them that way. He did it on purpose! Mom has to help him do everything unless she’s not there then Daddy can help (ie. take him out of his carseat). When he eats his Mamma Chia pouches he always has to check the lid to see if any seeds are stuck in the top and gets mad that we squeezed the pouch causing the seeds to go up there. Yes…the list goes on.
– He is super affectionate. He loves to give kisses and is always holding Emma’s hand. He is ALWAYS asking me to cuddle with him in his super cute toddler voice and I melt a little every time!
– He makes the most animated facial expressions and thinks everything is hilarious
– His favorite word is BBQ and he attaches it randomly to whatever he is saying.
– He loves bubbles, cooking (pretend and real!), sensory boxes, play-doh, and watching people mow the lawn
– We let him watch his first movie this past year and he loved it. We watched Sing!

Cooking with the kids

Here are the answers to his birthday questions this year with my comments in parentheses.

1. What is your favorite color? red (surprising because it’s been purple all year long! I think he chose red because of Darth Vader)
2. What is your favorite toy? his new Star Wars voice changing helmet
3. What is your favorite fruit? strawberries
4. What is your favorite tv show? STAR WARS (he doesn’t really watch TV but just likes to watch anything related to Star Wars)
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? apples
6. What is your favorite outfit? Darth Vader pajamas
7. What is your favorite game? Hide and Seek
8. What is your favorite snack? puffs (still loves to eat these even though they are for babies hehe)
9. What is your favorite animal? chicken (this was a totally random answer too!)
10. What is your favorite song? Jingle Bells (not sure how he came up with that one other than that is the song Emma is currently learning on piano! hehe)
11. What is your favorite book? Star Wars (we have a billion Star Wars books and he chooses 2 to read every night)
12. Who is your best friend? Katie (I think he only said this because Emma is always saying Katie is her best friend hehe)
13. What is your favorite cereal? I don’t know
14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? play with my lawnmower that blows bubbles
15. What is your favorite drink? juice (usually apple juice)
16. What is your favorite holiday? Easter because of the candy!
17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? Woofie (his purple dog that he got for Easter)
18. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? Mamma Chia
19. What do you want for dinner on your birthday? BBQ (he doesn’t really want BBQ but it’s his favorite word hehe)
20. What do you want to be when you grow up? A jedi!

Emma’s 5th Year Birthday Questions

My firstborn turned five yesterday! Five seems like one of the big milestone ages. My daughter is truly no longer a baby or toddler. She is a KID. With her own thoughts and opinions! Soon she will enter into Kindergarten where her parents will no longer be her whole world. I am truly sad and excited for her! I love having a front row seat watching my children grow and develop into little human beings. I may be biased but they are exceeding everything I could hope for them to be. Emma is truly one of the sweetest kids around. She is so good with other children and especially her (sometimes difficult) younger brother. We truly feel so lucky that she was our firstborn. She was the perfect first child for 2 people who completely did not know what we were doing as first time parents. :)

This past year, Emma has grown SO much. We used to worry so much about how shy and quiet she was. I actually thought she might have selective mutism at one point LOL! You would never have guessed how shy she is from her 5th birthday party she just had. We had over 70 people at our house and she was having so much fun with all of her friends. In fact, her favorite thing to do is to hang out with her friends. She is always begging for playdates! She used to be the most cautious kid ever as well. She is still careful but she has gotten over so many of her past fears this year. Each of these activities used to draw out tears from her: riding a pony, sledding, going down slides, going on roller coasters (kiddie ones). This past year she not only rode a pony but rode a “trotting” pony (goes faster than a normal pony ride), went sledding multiple times, slid down a super high slide, and went on a roller coaster 10 times in one day hehe (Gadget Go Coaster at Disneyland!). She gets super excited about facing and overcoming hear fears. Oh and did I mention she learned how to ride a bike without training wheels this past year? For a girl who has always been behind physically, we were shocked but she did it!

She is still continuing ballet and loves it. She also tried soccer (hated it), piano (loves it), and swimming (the jury is still out but as of last lesson she loves it!). She loves dancing, singing, and performing. She loves all things girly and the more glittery the better! She loves to go on adventures…from the beach, to the movies, to the playground…she loves it all.

We did not do any major vacations this year (aside from Seattle to visit my sister) but we did do a lot of local trips, camping/glamping, and some roadtrips. Emma loves the outdoors and had so much fun visiting Big Bear and Big Sur. She has several camping trips under her belt and will never turn down a S’more.

For her 5th birthday, we threw her a Moana-themed party at our house complete with a real live Moana that came and sang! We had a bounce house and several water sensory activities in the backyard. For her actual birthday, we went to Disneyland and she got a princess makeover at the Bippity Boppity Boutique where they did her hair, nails, and makeup. I can’t believe how happy it made her and was so glad we did it.

Emma is sweet, kind hearted, loving, smart, and makes us proud every day!! I can’t wait to see what year 5 brings for her.

Here are the answers to her birthday questions this year with my comments in parentheses.

1. What is your favorite color? pink, gold, silver, and purple
2. What is your favorite toy? my new unicorn (that her uncle gave her for her birthday)
3. What is your favorite fruit? watermelon
4. What is your favorite tv show? Dancing With The Stars (it just so happened to be the show she was currently watching, but when i pressed her more she said Lego Friends)
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? apples (I think this is her favorite food item they serve at school for lunch?)
6. What is your favorite outfit? A dress
7. What is your favorite game? Don’t know (but she loves board/card games like Spot It, War, Uno)
8. What is your favorite snack? cupcakes (this girl has a sweet tooth for sure!)
9. What is your favorite animal? bunnies!
10. What is your favorite song? We Love Peanut Butter (This just happens to be the song they are learning at school for a performance)
11. What is your favorite book? Boom Chicka Rock (and the Book With No Pictures)
12. Who is your best friend? Katie/Evangeline
13. What is your favorite cereal? Lucky charms (she said this all scared because I never buy this cereal for her because she only eats the marshmellows! hehe)
14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? play
15. What is your favorite drink? juice
16. What is your favorite holiday? Valentine’s Day
17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? nothing
18. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? strawberries
19. What do you want for dinner on your birthday? BBQ
20. What do you want to be when you grow up? mommy!

My Whole30 Experience And My Lazy Recommendations

I finally bit the bullet and attempted my first ever Whole30 this past month. In case you don’t know what it is, it is not a diet but more of a month long detox of 4 simple food groups. I was very intimidated to do this because to be honest, I rarely cook anymore and usually eat my MIL’s cooking or eat out. I maaaaybe cook once a week. I knew if I was to do a Whole30, I’d have to be responsible for every single one of my meals for 30 days. That might have been scarier to me than the actual act of denying myself some of my favorite foods! ha ha.  So the  4 “simple” food groups were  legumes, dairy, sugar, and grains….which turns out is in EVERYTHING I EAT !!! Yes that means no soy sauce or rice which is a staple in my Asian diet!

So…why did I do this? Well I’ve had it on my informal bucket list for years! With my recent health scares and a dietbet that my cousin started, I thought this was the perfect time to try it out. I was curious to see if I would be able to do it and also what affect certain foods (if any) has on my body.

Well I am less than a week out from being done!!!! I honestly can’t believe the end is near. Let me tell you in the beginning it is SO UNBELIEVABLY hard. I thought about giving up several times. But by the end, I was sailing through birthday parties and even Disneyland with only a tiny ounce of regret. I feel like I have absolute control over my eating habits (which is an amazing feeling to have). My cousin was also doing it at the same time and we both agreed we felt invincible while doing this knowing how much self control and willpower we have when we put our minds to it!

So even though I still have a few days left, I think it’s safe to talk about the results (I will update if I see anything else different). For one thing, even though you are not supposed to do this to lose weight, it is an added benefit. I was able to meet and surpass my dietbet goal (lose 4% of my weight in 4 weeks) and am actually only a few pounds away from my PRE-KIDS weight! My coughing seems to be under control but I think that might coincide more with my restarting my medication again this past month.  My stomach itself has been so “calm” this past month too. TMI but I am very regular now and never have any stomach pains which probably means I am somewhat lactose intolerant. Boo.

I am not sure what I will do after my Whole30 ends. I think I may try to eat better at lunch time and keep eating at my MIL’s and just eat whatever on the weekend. I am more aware now though about when I am full and when I am eating just to eat or not waste food (I’m sure I’m not the only mom that finishes her kids foods!). Whole30 really has changed me in a way (for the better!) and I am really glad I did it. I highly recommend it for anyone who feels like they might have a bad relationship with food or who thinks food might be the culprit of any health problems or who just wants to challenge themselves to see what they are capable of!

Lastly, I will end with the products/foods that really helped me get through my whole30. Most of these products are no/low cook for my lazy self!

From TJs:
Chomps Beef Jerky sticks
RxBar Blueberry
Ginger Kombucha
Dehydrated Beets (although this might be considered a chip in which case it is now banned)
Turkey Burgers
Mini bell peppers
Rack of lamb (in the frozen section)

From Whole Foods:
Garlic spread (I forgot the brand but I think they only sell 1)
TessaMae’s Mayo and Ranch dressing

I also survived on La Croix (or Target’s cheaper copycat version) and finally tried sweet potato toasts (topped with avocado) – highly recommend!

Here are some of my meals I cooked. Most of these are freezable so I would make a large batch and eat them spread out so I wouldn’t get sick of them. (I apologize in advance for these horrible photos lol. I just took them in the phone usually in the evening with no natural lighting)

 

 

Paleo chili (I converted to the instant pot)
Whole30 chili

Best roasted vegetables ever (if you’ve never made roasted vegetables like this you have to try! Def don’t skip on the tomatoes in this recipe)
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Egg, Sweet Potato, Kale, Sausage hash – I can’t seem to find where I got this recipe from but it’s basically what’s in the title hehe. I couldn’t find compliant breakfast sausage so I just took ground pork and add some “sausage” type spices to them. This was easily my favorite and easiest recipe on Whole30 and I will def be keeping this in my freezer for a quick and easy breakfast!
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Other than that I ate a lot of tuna/salmon salad. I bought the tuna that’s in olive oil and dumped it on a pile of mixed green. Added compliant mayo and lemon. Super quick and easy! Hardboiled eggs. Steak. Oh and I REALLY loved the frozen turkey burgers from TJs. I ate a lot of lettuce wrapped turkey burgers or just ate it over a bed of greens for an easy meal. I made ketchup with the mayo + tomato paste!

Let me know if any of you have done or will do a Whole30. I would love to hear your experience!

Site Was Hacked

OMG. My site has been down for a month because it was hacked and I didn’t have time to get it fixed. And then when I did have time it took longer than I expected (You mean there’s no button I just press to fix everything?? :(). Anyways, to save my blog, I had to manually delete all of the work the hacker(s) did to my website so I hope I did not miss anything. Otherwise my website will be down again. Stupid hackers :( :( :( Wish me luck that I got everything. I am just so glad I didn’t lose anything!

Valentine’s Day Gift Ideas

I got a Paper Source catalog in the mail and was flipping through at all of the cute gift ideas they had. Paper Source is so expensive though, I found most of the items on Amazon for half price! But Paper Source sure does a good job of making everything look so adorable :) I love gifting a surprise bag filled with cheesy/funny/loving gifts for my husband, my kids, and my friends! I thought I would round up some of my faves here:

My Bucketlist – I seriously want this book for myself! It has blank pages along with prompts, ideas, and places for you to keep pictures of completed bucket list items. And if you can stand the cheese, you can pair it with a “You Are My Bucket List” card! :)

Unicorn Rescue Kit – Also comes in different animals but I know my daughter who loves unicorns would get a kick out of this! Did you know unicorns can “change nightmares to good dreams, heal paper cuts, and re-carbonate flat soda?”. So cute!

Invisible Ink Pens!! This would be fun to jot a love note with.

Sound effect machine – I am pretty sure my 2 year old son would LOVE THIS.

The 5 Minute Journal – I have always loved blogging, journaling, etc but as you can tell for the past few years I just didn’t have the time! I love the premise behind this and if I didn’t have a few other journals like this going I would jump on this one!

Yes, speaking of these short, daily type journals, my cousin got me the best one for Christmas this past year. It is the Our Q&A a Day: 3 Year Journal For 2 People. I had never thought of doing one with boyrobot but this has been SO fun for us to fill out! With our kids the age that they are, sometimes our relationship gets put on the backburner just because we don’t have time. This book has made us take a few minutes out of our day to think about each other, to learn more about each other, and to spark conversations I would never think of having with my husband. It’s just the perfect book for this time in our lives. I can’t highly recommend it enough :) I also have the same one for moms and love it as well. I should probably go ahead and buy the kid’s one so I can start asking the kid’s questions!

Cute beauty products – There’s a whole range of cute animal themed beauty products on Amazon and I seriously love them all. They are mostly from Japan or Korea. Fun!

Geekifying My Kids

Even though I am not a hardcore Star Wars fan, I enjoy the movies. It is definitely one of the more memorable movies from my childhood. And of course I love all of the robots that are in the movies! We introduced Star Wars to Emma awhile ago and she seemed to really like it. And even though Max has never seen it, he is immediately drawn to Darth Vader and storm troopers when he sees them in a store for some reason! I know he will love it when he is old enough.

I saw this set of Star Wars Little Golden Books and think it would make such a fun addition to our library. I am very selective about what books we actually own since I love our public library and make use of it so don’t feel the need to fill our house with books too. This would make a great gift for any Star Wars fans parents out there!

I was hoping there would be a version of Harry Potter like this as well but nope :( We do have the illustrated version which is really nice but I’m not sure how much it captures my daughter’s attention yet. Although it’s been almost a year since I tried reading it to her so I might try again soon.

If you’re a Harry Potter fan, it is definitely worth getting this version with or without kids!

The best part about being a parent is getting to mold your kids into whatever you want. Of course it doesn’t always happen that way but while they are this young, they are easily influenced because really, to them, you are the COOLEST PERSON ON EARTH! :) I am just doing my part in making them as cool as their mommy :) ha ha.

A Life Changing Tumbler

Sometimes you come across a product that is a small change in your life but makes it so much better! This is one of those products :)

A few months back my sister posted on FB if anyone wanted to buy a Yeti-like tumbler that was part of a fundraiser for my nephew’s school. Being the supportive aunt that I am, I said yes even though I never ever use tumblers. This past Christmas she gave me the tumbler when she visited and I have been using it ever since!

For the past several years, I have been trying to drink more and more water and less sugary drinks. But the fact is, I don’t like water. So I would always struggle with drinking enough water. I started using the Sodastream and True Lemon which helped a lot with taste but in actuality it’s hard to drink a lot of a fizzy drink. Sometimes I would drink tea, but I would get lazy about heating up the water and constantly refilling my 8 oz mug. And it would get cold so super fast!!

This 30oz tumbler was the solution I was looking for! I fill it up at the beginning of my day and sip on it throughout my workday and it is able to keep the the tea warm ALL DAY (well at least while I am at work). It’s amazing. I am in love. I don’t know the exact brand of this tumbler but I was looking on Amazon and there is another very highly rated “Yeti-like” tumbler that looks exactly like mine. It’s probably the same! So I highly recommend this to anyone who might have the same problems as me!

The only thing that would make this tumbler better is if it was dishwasher safe but honestly the mouth is so wide and the lid is super simple that it’s super easy to clean. I don’t even mind handwashing it, unlike other thermoses I have bought!

Here is the link to the thermos on Amazon: RTIC 30 oz. Tumbler

Things My Kids Say

I’m going to try to record more of what the kids say…this is the best age! Also, going to try to post more here again. We’ll see if it happens :)

Last night Max saw his shadow on the ground and was giggling to himself. The way the lights were hitting his head it showed two shadows of his head. He kept exclaiming “There are 2 My-Ky!!!” and cracking up hysterically (That’s his chinese name and what he calls himself, pronounced like Mike-y). Maybe you had to be there but it was so cute!

Emma schooling me on how she gets Max to do things
Emma: If you want Max to do something you tell him you’ll give him his favoritest thing
Me: What’s his most favorite thing?
Emma: I think pennies. Or snow.

The smartest 2 year old that already knows his days of the week :)
Me: Max did you wash your hands???
Max: Yes
Me: When did you wash your hands?
Max: (with a completely straight face) Friday

What it’s like having a boy
Max: (farts multiple times)
Max: WHOA…what’s that sound?

Love watching these two play together…the sweetest siblings!
Minh: Do you still want to trade Max for a little sister?
Emma: Nooo!
Dad: Why not?
Emma: Because I’m having so much fun with Max!

The Night I Almost Died?

Hehe maybe the title’s a little exaggeration but I just went through something crazy so I had to document it. And just to warn you it’s long and detailed and probably boring to everyone but me :)

It’s crazy that a month ago I thought I was a perfectly healthy 36 year old. A few weeks ago I developed a cough. I have a tendency to get a persistent dry cough for weeks/months at a time so I didn’t think much of it. This cough was a little weirder though because it sounded very phlegm-y and deep in my chest. Even though I wasn’t too worried, I did something I normally don’t do….I actually made an appt to see a doctor! I was annoyed that I had developed a cough again and I knew from last time that if I didn’t get it treated it could go for months like before so I thought I would nip it in the bud early on for once.

My doctor prescribed me with cough medicine and antibiotics. She told me to wait a week before taking the antibiotics since she wasn’t sure if it was viral or bacterial yet and she didn’t want me to mess with my gut health without giving my body a chance to fight off the “cold”. Unfortunately, a few days later I started developing a breathing problem. Carrying my children suddenly felt like I had just climbed many flights of stairs. Walking across campus at work even put me out of breath! I decided to go back to the doctor who told me I had developed pneumonia! Which was weird because I had no fevers or chills. Just a cough and trouble breathing. After googling, I figured I had “walking pneumonia”.She immediately told me to start taking the antibiotics, gave me an inhaler, prescribed me some inflammation meds and had me use a nebulizer in the office. She also told me to buy one to use at home but honestly I didn’t feel like the nebulizer helped much so I ended up putting off buying it. I figured the antibiotics would just fix me right up. Either way, I felt pretty much “ok” and continued going back to work.

After I finished my medication I started feeling better. I still had a cough but other than that I felt normal. But only a few days later I noticed I was getting worse again :( I left work early that day because I couldn’t stop coughing and breathing was getting really difficult. I called my doctor and they asked me if I had gotten the nebulizer and I told them no. I ordered it that day but it’s only available through amazon so I had to wait for it to come the next day. I went home and tried to take it easy but even at rest I was having trouble catching my breath. I tried to use my inhaler which was difficult because I couldn’t get a good breath in. I ended up calling my DR again and telling them I had to wait another day for the nebulizer to arrive and that I was having a really hard time breathing. They told me I could come into the office and use the nebulizer. I drove in and used it and I felt much better afterwards. They told me if I needed to I could come back in the morning and use it again. I went home feeling much better.

Until I got home….and couldn’t breathe again! It was getting really annoying. At some point I finally decided to call boyrobot who was on his way home from work. I am not sure why I decided to call him but as soon as he picked up I started crying because I couldn’t talk or breathe. I ended up having to text him. The funny thing was I told him I’m ok….I just couldn’t breathe and that it was scaring me. The whole time I didn’t feel like my life was in danger. I just felt like…I need to just give myself time to catch my breath. Boyrobot was urging me to call 911 which felt super silly! I finally gave in and let him call our friend that lives nearby to take me to the hospital. (Thank you again Cheryl for dropping everything and taking me!!!!). I went outside to wait for Cheryl and sat down in the grass. As I was sitting out there I started feeling better and feeling so silly about what was transpiring. Was I really going to go to the ER over this?

Cheryl arrived a few minutes later and just walking to the car got me out of breath again. I figured ok, maybe I should just go and see what they say. Inside, I felt calm and in no danger..but on the outside I was freaking out and sort of crying. Isn’t that weird?!?!?! Cheryl dropped me off while she went to go park the car. I told the receptionist I couldn’t breathe and she called for a wheelchair and they wheeled me into the ER. They put me on a nebulizer again which didn’t seem to really help. They also made me pee to make sure I wasn’t pregnant (I’m not!) before they took chest xrays. Just going to a portable potty next to my bed got me really out of breath. By this time boyrobot had finally arrived. They prescribed me a pill to help sedate/calm me because they said the more I freaked out the harder it was for me to breathe. All of my vitals were going out of whack and honestly after this point everything gets completely fuzzy. The last thing I remember was feeling so restless and annoyed that I couldn’t breathe and that the breathing treatments weren’t helping. After that I have no recollection of the rest of the night other than what boyrobot has told me.

According to him, I proceeded to throw up, wet myself, and was under the possibility of being put under and intubated! The only way they could get me to breathe was on a bipap machine but they said my body could not sustain being on the bipap machine for that long. Boyrobot overheard the nurses talking about me and saying how sad it was that I am so young and this was happening to me. When I got admitted to the ICU they asked him if I had a will and testament or if I had a DNR which really freaked him out. I feel so bad I put him through this. So thankful for my inlaws who were able to watch the kids so that boyrobot could stay by my side the whole time I was at the hospital. I am not sure how they finally got me stable but maybe the steroids they were giving me started working because the next day I woke up and felt normal again. It’s funny, I woke up and was wondering why am I even here? I had no idea everything that had happened the previous night. When they told me I was stuck in the ICU for a few days I was so shocked. For the next few days, my vitals were continuously monitored and I was poked and prodded all day. I had daily blood draws and even a daily stomach shot. I used to hate needles but I was a pro by the end of my stay! Before I left I met again with the DR that had treated me the night I came into the ER and he was like “wow, you look like a completely different person!”. All I could think was…have we met before? I do not remember him at all! After a 4 day stay I am finally home now. I am still not sure what happened. They think maybe I had a bad reaction to a viral infection and maybe have some underlying asthma that exacerbated the symptoms? Now that I am home I am feeling better but I still have my nagging cough. I have some followup appointments with a pulmonary specialist to make sure I’m ok and to see if maybe I have some asthma? (hope not!!!). I am just thankful to be home again…the hospital stay was truly miserable. I didn’t get to shower the whole time I was there!!! I am so so thankful to be reunited with my kids again as well since they weren’t allowed in the ICU.

Anyways, even though I never felt like I was in any real danger…I do get teary-eyed thinking about what happened and what could have happened? It can all change in a blink of an eye. And it’s even scarier when you have young children and a loving husband. It just reiterates everything I said in my last post. I love and appreciate all of the people in my life and am so grateful for this life!!!!