Things that are currently wrong with me:

– both of my knees are still messed up. met up with a specialist last week who told me that he thinks i’ve torn my meniscus. mri scheduled for monday. i’m supposed to start physical therapy asap and after the meniscus is confirmed i may have to have surgery :(
– my lymph nodes are swollen AGAIN for no particular reason
– i’ve developed a chalazion (lump) on my eyelid
– my neck has been killing me for the past week. i can’t turn my head to the side without immense pain
– i have acid reflux
– my chest hurts in cold weather
– i’m starting to get back pain from all of this limping i’m doing

and to add to all of this i have a house to buy and a wedding to plan for! i think i’m going to start blogging only 3 times a week for now. at least until i fix half of the things on my list that is wrong with me. ugh.

Have you noticed that American society can be very critical about people spending time alone? Let’s consider Friday night activities. The societal “coolness” factor of pursuits is directly proportional to the number of people involved:

1. coding at home alone
2. watching a movie at home with a friend
3. going out to the movies with 5 friends
4. going out to a house party with 50 attendees
5. going to a nightclub packed with 400 people dancing

Many people would rank these as ascending in coolness, i.e. descending in lameness.

– Niniane in Why Is Coolness Proportional To Number Of Participants

It’s too GD hot to post so you get this video.

So this weekend I spent a lot of time at my grandfather’s convalescent home since my dad is in town and he wants to spend as much time as he can with his parents who are getting super old (they are both 94!).

Anyways, this leg thing (which is still hurting me btw) had me depressed but after spending time around a lot of old people it has me even more depressed! I seriously don’t know what I will do when I get old. It seems like a lot of people there are just waiting for death to take them away. It would be sweet relief. When it comes to a point in your life when you become dependent on others, it just sucks. Take my grandfather’s roommate at the hospital….

All day he yells “NURSE!!” every 5 minutes. When the nurse comes in, he’ll tell her he can’t breath (a lie), he needs to go to the bathroom (something he can do on his own….he has to pee in a portable “urinal”, or the bottom of his feet hurt (a lie or not, it’s something they can’t do anything about apparently). All day long, he complains about these things to the point where the nurses have stopped coming. He just lays there yelling “NURSE” all day and will sometimes ask us if we will go get the nurse for him. (Which we did do the first few times but the nurse was like just ignore him). When the nurse tells him to stop calling for her, he just says you try laying in this bed all day long! The reason he even does this is because he literally has NO visitors and is super lonely. When the nurse comes in, it’s the only little interaction he has with someone. My grandfather does not speak english so he can’t really converse with him. The 3rd roommate is literally a mute. Noone has ever seen him talk and he is usually drugged out anyway. SO SAD! I feel so sorry for both of these men!

I’m really thankful for my wonderful aunts. My Grandfather is a very lucky person. I have 4 aunts that live near my grandfather that come to visit him DAILY. Without fail, one aunt comes in at lunch time and helps feed him, another aunt comes in at dinner time to do the same, my 3rd aunt visits him every saturday at lunch and my 4th aunt takes him home every saturday evening so he can experience a different environment from the hospital. This is EVERY week! Can you imagine giving up your time like my aunts do? I can only hope that one day when I am old I can receive the same attention and care that they give my grandfather. It’s amazing! It’s so sad seeing all of the other people there with no visitors. :(

Despite all of the attention my grandfather gets, his life in the convalescent home is still depressing. Just because he is confined to a bed all day with only a tv for entertainment. He has alzheimer’s so he is unable to do any reading or enjoy much of anything. Today when my father and I came to visit the first thing he said was “When am I going to die? Why can’t I just die already?”. He basically feels like his life is pointless at this point. Man..soooo sad.

Another depressing point is my grandmother. She lives with one of my aunts. My grandfather misses her so much! It’s so sweet. All day long he sings a little line that basically means “where is mother at”. As in where is his wife. She is very old and is confined mostly at home because she gets motion sickness very easily. She can’t stand car rides, it makes her very tired and nauseous so it is hard for her to visit my grandfather much. One time I went to visit her and I told her that grandfather always asks for her, and she started crying. I was like ooops….I just wanted her to know that he misses her! I can tell that she misses him very much as well. It is wonderful to see that their love has stood the test of time.

Anyways, after this weekend I realized how much it sucks when you get so old you aren’t able to do anything but just exist. If you have any grandparents out there, you should go visit them! I think it would seriously brighten their day.

French Elle magazine is releasing a no makeup issue – how refreshing!
Cookbook brownie taste test – looks like the winner is betty crocker
4chan manipulates Time’s 100 poll – oh 4chan and their shenanigans! this is pretty impressive though
Hi res photos of the first pup – and as to be expected he’s soooo cute.
F— Yeah Cilantro – i’ve always been pretty indifferent to cilantro. it’s just there. and i’ll eat it (I’m viet…it’s a requirement!)
How to make homemade slushies – I lovelovelove slushies!

What is it about baby animals…adorable!

I forgot if I posted about this before or not but it’s way past my bedtime so this one is gonna have to be a quickie.

click here for crazy pictures of a catfish that tried to swallow a basketball!!

I know this video has been making the rounds but in case you missed it:

I love it when stars poke fun of themselves! This made me like Lindsay a little bit more.

This new blog I discovered is so genius! Dork Yearbook features pictures of dorks when they were a kid. If I had a scanner I would totally post up my dorkalicious photo from my awkward middle school years. glasses, braces, and bad perm anyone? :)

Pictures like these are making me laugh:

Jodi Lynn: “The only thing that has changed is that my computer screen is bigger and I have upgraded the sweat pants to yoga pants.” (1993)

Check out more here.

I just had the most miserable week of my life. Last week I told you how I got a sprained knee and was on crutches. Well, guess what? After using the crutches I somehow ended up spraining my OTHER KNEE. So I had TWO sprained knees. If I was walking funny before, I was really walking funny this past week. Every time I had to get up and do anything (go to the bathroom, leave my room which is upstairs), I would literally cry inside because walking was SO hard.

I took one day off (monday), but I toughed the other ones out and went to work. Luckily, my job does not require much physical activity. And luckily the elevator was only broken on Monday when I still had one good knee. I still don’t know how I managed to hobble around with two sprained knees! Well, now it is practically 2 weeks since I first sprained my knee. My first sprained knee is finally starting to get better. I can bend it some and lift it. The other knee is worse off….I can’t bend it as much and I can barely lift it. The left one is more swollen than the other but I still have water around both knees.

Anyways, I’m feeling better about the whole thing now. I think by the end of this week I’ll be able to walk somewhat normal. I feel like doing flips and running around when that day comes but I think I should probably take it easy :P